A New Normal

There’s a storm outside. I’m listening to the ‘Lush and Atmospheric’ playlist on Spotify. There is a glass of Malbec next to me. Those sentences are true tonight as I write this blog post and they will have been true tomorrow when you read them. Much like life, the present, past, and future are all contained in one sentence.

Last Monday my boyfriend left for basic military training because he joined the Air Force. The life I knew to be true was true in the morning, because he was still here, but the future lingered as I got ready for work. When I returned from work I entered into a new normal; the life I became accustomed to was now the past.

Last week I wrote about embracing change. I wrote that I am learning to walk with change. I expected change to be difficult but did not imagine it would be this hard. I find that if I think about the weeks he will be gone I get anxious so it is best if I think of it in terms of days. Not days he will be gone but days I will get up and live life.

That’s what walking with change is – feeling the emotions but not letting them drag you down.

Again I must remind myself that it’s okay to mourn what was while walking into the future. There are lessons to learn in every stage of life and you can’t learn the lessons that are meant for you if you dwell in the past.

” And I’ll rise up
High like the waves
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousands times again”

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